Nutella + The Real Deal

A few months back, I posted about how performing for people is an issue of mine. For much of my life this has been true and recently God has been growing me into a stronger, more confident woman through my relationship with Him. In my role as Communications + co-Travel Coordinator on our team, I feel in my niche. It's like I'm living out the gifts and talents God has given me--developing them and using them for His glory. And it feels dang good. I'm tasting the freedom we get from knowing Jesus and being assured of our stance with him, caring nothing about the world's input. This blog has been a great outlet for me to experience it as well.

I Corinthians has been my jam (jam = thing, favorite, etc.) the past two weeks. I've been reading out of The Message translation lately, and while this may not be the most accurate or word-for-word edition of the Bible, it has given me a new perspective. After you've read something many times, it can be easy to skim over it and miss the significance of its meaning.

Switching up which translation you're reading is a great way to keep the Bible fresh. And you don't have to go buy 10 different Bibles. Check out this site for a ton of (free) different versions.

My man Paul (the author of this book) can preach.

"It matters very little to me what you think of me, even less where I rank in popular opinion." I Corinthians 4:3

Ok, now I wish I could say as confidently as Paul did that the approval of those around me is irrelevant. And while I've made great progress, I wouldn't say I'm totally here. Why was Paul able to so boldly cling to his identity in Jesus and not the world's approval, or lack thereof?

I think it has to do with the very real encounter he had with Jesus himself. Paul, a former persecutor of Christians, was now leading the way. He had partaken of what this world had to offer and knew how unsatisfying it was. And now he was experiencing the rich fulfillment of knowing God personally.

It's like living your life eating generic "hazelnut spread" and then someone giving you a jar of REAL Nutella. You'll never turn back.

I want the real-deal, genuine, life-changing gig. And that's only coming from the good Lord himself. I'll keep clinging to Him, claiming the truth and promises of the Bible for my life and believing that my value isn't coming from where I rank in popular (or un-popular) opinion.

A Step Forward

Well today’s the day.

The day I take a step out of my comfort zone, a step of faith, to be obedient to what the Lord has asked me to do. Tonight my hubs and I are giving the main talk at our weekly gathering for Cru at Ohio University

As I’ve said before, I struggle with feeling the need to perform. It comes through in my feeling inadequate, constantly comparing myself to others and at times times not taking opportunities because I fear what people will think of me.

But I’m so tired of living my life that way. Insecure. Fearful. Doubting that God could use me in a special way. So when the chance came for me to speak alongside my husband, I knew it was the time to drive a stake in the ground, making this a turning point in my life; of resting in who I am because of Jesus, not the opinions of my peers and coworkers.

It’s not so much the public speaking that makes me anxious, but the wondering of what people will think of how I did that gives me butterflies. That, and the anticipation of just wanting to get up there and do it already!

So I as I go through this afternoon, I ask for your prayers--that I’d remain at peace, staying focused on my reason for doing this (Jesus), clinging to to Galatians 1:10 [that I wouldn’t try to please man, but God], and excited about talking to students about being sent. My hubs is a natural at this but pray for him as well--that every word that comes out of our mouths would be from the Holy Spirit, not our own strength.

If you’re in Athens, come out to Morton 201 tonight at 9pm to hear us. I’ll post a link to the talk once it’s up for any of you that would like to hear it. Thank you again for your prayers and encouragement. What a blessing your feedback from this blog has been to me!